Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Breaking News: Corbin Fisher Model, Clay, Commits Suicide

Wow. I'm stunned guys. Just stunned. This is probably one of the hardest blogs I've had to post and one of the most heartbreaking. I am actually fighting to keep myself together and not burst into tears right now. And I don't know why. I didn't know him. Maybe it's because he was so young, only 18, still a baby and the Big Mama side of me is coming out and wishes he could have had someone to talk to about whatever demons he was battling. I don't know. I'm rambling. I apologize. Anyway...
It is with a very heavy heart that I pass on what has just been reported here
at Str8upgayporn. Corbin Fisher model Clay, real name Christopher Luke McAteer, died on Easter Sunday. The cause of death was suicide, a self inflicted gunshot wound to the head after he fired multiple rounds into the restaurant he had just been fired from. Thankfully, no one else was hurt or killed.
Reports are saying that around 8:15 PM on Saturday McAteer was fired from Ninki's Japanese Restaurant after getting into a fight with another worker and making threats to him. About fifteen minutes later, McAteer reportedly drove past the restaurant in his car and fired five rounds into the restaurant. He was then found later that evening with the self-inflicted gunshot wound. He was taken to the local hospital where he died Sunday.
I have chills just from writing that. I think the thing that gets me the most is that, looking at his pictures, he looks so happy. He looks like the last person in the world you'd expect this from.
I have heard that other bloggers and people close to McAteer are saying that he was battling depression and that he was also the victim of bullying and death threats after it was found out that he had done scenes for Corbin Fisher. I don't know if he was a straight kid who was just curious and wanted to experiment, bisexual or actually gay but I do know that it is sad that in this day and age-it's 20fucking15 people, people are getting death threats for something like this!
I have read McAteer's obituary and it appears that he came from a very religious family, so I don't know if his upbringing had something to do with it. The obituary does make several mentions that McAteer had recently "rededicated" his life to the Lord and was trying to "live a Christian life every day."
Corbin Fisher has pulled all of McAteer's scenes from the site and his funeral his scheduled for Saturday.
I hope that wherever he is he is resting peacefully. Goodbye beautiful angel. I only wish Big Mama could have been there for you.



  1. Daniel Friend BowenApril 8, 2015 at 2:19 PM

    Sad when anyone takes his own life for any reason but Depression is a real affliction and hopefully people relize there is help!

    1. Exactly! I always say, there's a reason my boys and my young gays call me Big Mama and Mama Joe. My kids know this old broad is there for them and they don't have to go it alone.

    2. There are lots of comments from people who knew him personally on this thread

    3. "
      It is hard to even fathom that a friend is no longer with us. I wish so much that he would have talked to someone because he was an awesome soul, he was caring and would have your back and to know that we lost a good hearted person what hurts the most. Luke may you rest in love May you rest in Peace"

      Let the hardened hearts talk bad about them. They will learn eventually. Luke was a long time childhood friend. May he rest in peace in gods hands."

      " I'm not justifying what he did by any means but he struggled with depression and many other issues. Those who really know Luke know that he isn't a coward but he was a guy with a good heart who lost his way and needed help. I think everyone would agree that firing shots at the business was wrong but maybe if people had actually payed attention and tried to help him instead of judging him all the time then this situation wouldn't have happened at all. You never know what people are going through so watch what you say. "

      "All that matters is that he was loved... And he was a good person while on this earth. Who are you to call him a coward YIU don't know nor could you imagine what he was going through. Your the coward. There are families mourning right now and instead of praying YOU want to throw salt in their wounds. May God help you and your family. "

      Ahh brb gonn cry again!! So young.......!!! :'((

    4. I agree with you and am sorry for your loss. He seemed like a good soul, as I said, I could tell he had a warm heart from the smile in his picture. And you are right, people need to embrace each other instead of judging each other, that would solve and end so much violence in this world. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family and his family and friends. 18 is too young to go. Hugs.

  2. You're not alone. I cried so hard. I saw tweets from his friends. EVERYONE LOVES HIM. Shame to that jealous gay who outed him. This wouldn't have happened!!

    1. I saw the comments on his obit page too. The one that got me was the comment from someone who went to elementary school with him who talked about how Christopher saved him from being bullied on the playground and they weren't friends and didn't even know each other. Shows what a good kind hearted person he was. Were you a friend of his? If so I am sorry for your loss. I can tell from the smile in his pictures that he had a good heart and was a good person.

    2. No I don't know him personally. I just read tweets from his friends and Wes instagram page!!!